Currently Reading The Sacred Romance: Drawing Closer to the Heart of God By Brent Curtis, John Eldredge see related

Wow!

It has been a great long while since my last entry. I'm sure that quite a bit has changed since then, I'm sure I have changed. Well for one, my room is finally clean. That's a big accomplishment for me and it only took me the whole school year to finally do it.
Another thing is that I've taken up to reading. I've read two book this month and I'm on my third right now. I love to read and I have missed it so much during the school year. I was just so busy that I've been unable to read any books in my own interest, but now that I'm not working on school work or worrying about school work I'm able to read what I like. The first two books I read were amazing and this third one is good but not as good as the others.
 I've also been growing a lot in my walk with God. We've been getting a whole lot closer in the last month or two. It's been great. I love getting up every morning and diving into the Bible. It's the highlight of my day. I probably couldn't've said that a few months ago. I honestly wasn't doing my quiet times as often as I would've liked or following Christ with all my heart. I was trying but not with all my heart. I don't know if that makes a whole lot of sense but that's how it was and that's probably the best way that I can put it into words. But now I feel like a different person. Like that verse says, "we are a new creation in Christ, the old has gone and the new has come." It's so cool how God answers prayers. I have been praying for the past year for God to radically change me and put a hunger and thirst for Him in my heart and he has! God is Awesome!
I'm still working at the theater... Almost been there a year now. I like it but it's still a little frustrating at times. I really wish that I was making more but I think that God has put me here for a reason and I'm not going to leave unless I'm suppose to. I'm going to try and work there six days a week and pick up some extra shifts during that time. Hopefully I'll be able to make enough money this summer that I won't need to take out a loan for school this next year.
Well I should be getting to bed. Long day tomorrow. If you wanna catch up, give me a call or pop me an e-mail...

Long day.....

Well this is the first blogging typed on my new laptop....

Today was a rather long day. I woke up a few minutes before my alarm went off, got out of bed, and prepared for my long day. I went out and attempted to start my car. I turned the keys and the engine attempted to start but was unsuccessful. I repeated this a few times but there was no way I was going to drive that car. Lucky, my parents let me borrow the van and I headed off to school.
In my Dental Assisting program we're required to be FirstAid/CPR certified. My training day was today and so I was at school for eight hours today. For four hours of the training today we worked on CPR mannequins. Oh my goodness! My shoulders are so sore from that which didn't help what I did after the class. Directly after that I headed to work and what a long day there it was. I got there earlier because class ended early but I worked in vending which was hard because I was so tired. I worked with Ryan which was fun but I wanted to be lasy and slack off. Of course I can't do that because I'm going to be a Service Specialist. The customers weren't so bad tonight but I was just crabby from the long day and the women continually complaining about the woman's room being "trashed". Just because there are four papertowels on the floor does not mean it's trashed.... *sigh* Anyway, Phia was weird all night (when is he not? *rolls eyes*) and the night ended up going by pretty quickly.
After we had done all of our finishing jobs and were done with everything I needed to get done in vending, I got to talk with John and Shannon for a while which is always a blast. after we chatted for a while, John and I wwent upstairs and he began to teach me a bit more indepth on how to project. He's such a good teacher and friend. He's just a good guy overall! He makes me happy. Anyway, he showed me how everything works and what does what, which made sense of why we do what we do when projecting. After that he showed me how to thread and why we thread it that way. He let and helped my thread four of them and gave me pointers a long the way. He's very patient and understanding. I was nervous cuz John is like our "professional" projectionist and I didn't want to wreck the film. He reassured me and told me I was doing well. Hopefully I'll be prepared enough to project on Monday. If I'm not, I'll just blam it on Phia. He gave me no days to get trained in so it was off and on training and I've only had about 2 hours of training on the projectors.... The first time I threaded by myself was today and I still needed John to help guide me. Bleh! Phia is lame!!!
It's been a long day. CPR and dummies, Phia and the "trashed" bathrooms, bad memories, but John teaching me how to project and talking with him was a highlight. Fun Times At The Theater!!!

Well.... I'm off to bed! I hope you all have a blessed week!

Two more days.....

It seems like it's been ages since my last post. I finally have checked this. I seem to never have time to do that anymore. I do really miss blogging on here and hearing about what's going on in people's lives but every one has gotten busy with things and xanga has lost it's zeal.

Well I'm going to right an entry even though it seems as if no one is on here anymore.
Work is crazy and busy. School is very very very busy. And that doesn't really leave time for much else. I'm going to start trying to make time to help out around the house, which I have to say I haven't been doing. Hopefully over winter break I will be able to catch up on rest and spend time with my family and friends who have been away at college.

Work is becoming more and more difficult. A coworker of mine does not seem to understand why I would want to follow a God who is not there. He continues to tell me, "Come on!!! Don't let your religion rule you!" I combat his attacks with, "It doesn't rule me. It's a part of me." He doesn't seem to understand that God is my best and closest friend, that I will defend Him to the end and would die if I needed to. I wish that this person could see how Awesome and Amazing God is and what he can do in his life. God could totally transform his life but he just doesn't want to see. I pray that his heart will be softened and his eyes opened to God's Awesome love and power.

School is finishing up and getting busy again. This past weekend I didn't do any homework. That was a mistake. I should've gotten ahead and caught up. Oh well! Hopefully I will be able to get ahead this week.

Not much else going on. I am missing having a boyfriend, having someone that I have that special bond with. It's not been easy for me getting over that being gone but I know that God has a plan for me. It was probably a good thing that I got out of that relationship. Too bad it wasn't easy though.
I should probably head off to bed! I hope all is well with everyone. Call me or e-mail me!

East To West - Casting Crowns
Here I am, Lord, and I’m drowning in your sea of forgetfulness
The chains of yesterday surround me
I yearn for peace and rest
I don’t want to end up where You found me
And it echoes in my mind, keeps me awake tonight
I know You’ve cast my sin as far as the east is from the west
And I stand before You now as though I’ve never sinned
But today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

Jesus, can You show me just how far the east is from the west
‘Cause I can’t bear to see the man I’ve been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
‘Cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other

I start the day, the war begins, endless reminding of my sin
Time and time again Your truth is drowned out by the storm I’m in
Today I feel like I’m just one mistake away from You leaving me this way

I know You’ve washed me white, turned my darkness into light
I need Your peace to get me through, to get me through this night
I can’t live by what I feel, but by the truth Your word reveals
I‘m not holding on to You, but You’re holding on to me
You’re holding on to me

Jesus, You know just how far the east is from the west
I don’t have to see the man I’ve been come rising up in me again
In the arms of Your mercy I find rest
‘Cause You know just how far the east is from the west
From one scarred hand to the other
One scarred hand to the other
From one scarred hand to the other

Update....

It's been almost a month since my last update and I thought it was about time for one. I'm not sure if anyone still reads this but I'll just post a quick update anyways.

Life is really busy with school and it's a bit overwhelming. I feel like I have so much to do and so little time to accomplish it. I know in my mind that I'm doing well in school but I feel like I am struggling in every class. That every day is a struggle, that everything I do is never good enough, that I fail even when I do my best.

My cyst is driving me crazy. I hope they get better soon.

Need to go. School and work are literally calling me.